Today I watched my son writhing in pain as he dealt with a really bad case of constipation. This was his first time having constipation in his almost one year of existence. We switched his formula because his current formula is from 0-12months and we wanted to transition him to the 12 months and over formula because he is days away from his first birthday. Unfortunately, the new formula had way too much iron and his body reacted negatively to it.
As I watched him crying and straining with all his might to get a release, I could not help but cry. I felt helpless, I felt like I failed him as a mother and I regretted not consulting his pediatrician before making such a move. I did all I could as a mom, I gave him prune (juice and in its puréed form), I increased his water intake, I massaged his tummy, I gave him a warm bath. Unfortunately, nothing worked and we were both in tears.
This has been the most heartrending experience we have both had together since his birth. I took him to his doctor on Sunday and he was given an enema which seemingly helped, but today is Thursday and he’s still constipated in-spite of all our efforts. As a parent, watching your child in pain, is one of the worst feelings in the world. If there was an option for me to experience constipation instead of him, I would exchange my body with his in a heartbeat. Everything within me wanted to comfort him and take away his pain, but I couldn’t.
It made me wonder though: how does God respond when we are hurting? The fact is he loves us beyond what we can even imagine. We are reminded of his never ending love for us in Isaiah.
“Though the mountains be shaken and the hills be removed, yet my unfailing love for you will not be shaken nor my covenant of peace be removed,” says the Lord, who has compassion on you.”~Isaiah 54:10
Nothing will stop God from loving us. Love is a verb and God has demonstrated over and over how much he loves us through his actions. So even though we don’t see him physically when we are hurting, we can rest assured that he is concerned about what hurts us and will make a way of escape if it is in his will. It doesn’t mean though that he will remove everything from us simply because we are hurting. The truth is, sometimes we have to go through those experiences so that we can be molded and be pruned in some cases. What we do know though, is that he is with us and he will never leave us nor forsake us.
Is there any area of your life that you feel like God has forsaken or doesn’t care about? Read his words and you will realize how much he absolutely loves you.