1 Corinthians 15:9 For I am the least of the apostles, that am not meet to be called an apostle, because I persecuted the church of God.
What mistakes have you made in the past? Whatever those mistakes are, it is important that you know that your worth is not determined by your past mistakes or the current state of your life. That might be how you are judged by others, but that is not how God judges you.
David had committed both murder and adultery, yet God said of him that he was a man after his own heart (1 Samuel 13:14). God judged him by his character, not one mistake that he made.
Moses might have been a murderer, but God still used him to lead his people out of Egypt. He was judged not by his mistake but by his passion for his purpose.
By hiding in the winepress, Gideon was acting contrary to how a mighty warrior would act, but God referred to him as such, God saw him based on his potential. The barometer being used by others to judge you is not how God sees you; He sees much more than that.
Paul was self-conscious of the mistake that he made in his past, that of persecuting the church of God. It was for this reason he said in 1 Corinthians 15:9 that he was the least of the apostles and not meet to be called an apostle. Paul put himself down, not out of humility, but because he had made a mistake out of ignorance. Despite the mistake that he made, God still called him to preach the gospel to the Jews and Gentiles. While others saw Paul as a horrible person, God saw him through another lens and only saw a person with misguided passion.
Rather than allow yourself to be plagued by your past, see yourself how God sees you.
Life Application: See yourself how God sees you by constantly reminding yourself of what God has been saying about you as it relates to your purpose and his declared promises concerning your life.
Prayer: Lord, thank you for loving me despite my mistakes and past transgressions against you. Thank you for your agape love that lifts me up. Thank you for still using me even though I have sinned against you in the past. In Jesus’ name, amen.